Today was the day I've been dreading for such a long time. It was time to go back to work. I know that I'm a better mom because I work - I don't get so irritated about the little things, I love the time I have with my kids, and I cherish every day with them. I just don't want to miss a first. I've been blessed to see both my other kids big steps and I don't want to miss one of Beckett's. I can't stand the thought of leaving this little boy but I know I have to.
I snuggled with him and then got up and got ready. I left out the door quickly so I wouldn't think further about it, Brandon brought the kids to his mom's house. We are blessed that Vickie is willing to help us so much with the kids. I did get a text in the morning saying that Beckett was refusing his bottle. Not what I wanted to hear! I called at lunch and heard him screaming in the background. Broke my heart. I went over there and right before I got there he started on the bottle. As hard as it was for me, I left before he saw or smelled me. He apparently did much better in the afternoon.
My day at work was pretty good, busier than I thought I would be. While it was good to see everyone I was sure ready to pick up my babies!
Such smiles for mama! He was snuggly and did not want to stop nursing.
Wish I was there with them!